Sonntag, 27. Dezember 2015

Is there something?

How much time do you invest in yourself? Not for profit but for being.
How often do you read, how often do you just sit down and think? How often do you write? How much time do you spend actually improving a skill? And by that I don't mean in video games. I mean in real life. How much time do you spend in the real world?
I don't know what your answer might be but for me, until now, it hasn't been much. Actually the answer in numbers would frighten myself.
I love to go out, to enjoy the nature, the moment, real people. But at the time I am anxious of all that. I am consumed by thoughts of what I could do or achieve by doing this or that – but I seldomly do any of it. I spend more time planning and thinking about my skills instead of actually doing something with or about them. And it is so frustrating, that I keep lying to myself in order to avoid them.
Isn't it funny how easy it feels to just keep lying to protect ourself from just slowing, quieting and calming down? To just be there for a moment. And see deeply in what's really missing. What we really want or need to do? It's not, because the amount of missteps has grown as large as the depts of our countries and the only solution - which I'd rather call protection - seems to be running away. Running away towards entertainment, study, stimulation and excess, which makes the pile of shame grow more and build uncountable walls around us.
So don't act surprised if the wall gets too big and collides. Be aware that it's made of thin glass and is easy to smash. Don't wait for it to be smashed in the first place. Do it yourself and expose your weaknesses. Start accepting them and working on them. Work on yourself. Work for yourself. Be what you want to be in the real world, not in your mind. Just fucking do it. At least before it's too late – because I bet there are many things too late already. And the pile will overgrow you, if you don't start to work it down now!

Samstag, 26. Dezember 2015

Hey 2015

Jahre ist es her, daher weiß ich nicht mehr auf welchem Blog, aber ich habe mal eine Top 10 von Lieblingsstoffen (glaub ich) auf nem Lifestyle blog gesehen. Und dann hab ich irgendwo eine Zusammenfassung von den Lieblingsinstagrambildern im Jahr gesehen. Sorry das ich keine Quellen habe, aber dafür hatte ich noch die Schablone und wollte beides kombinieren!

Dienstag, 1. Dezember 2015

Critic-Challenege #2

Yesh! I am finally finished and I wanted to close this up with another blogpost.
Slowly I am getting the hang of regularity - my challenges work steadily.

So, what was I expecting?
Actually I am not quite sure. I probably wanted to make some experiences, to observe my mind, improve myself, be able to shut off judging whenever I want.

What happened?
Life is not a movie apperantly, and you can't build up superpowers, which allow you to control your thoughts whenever you want. It's a pity, but I actually learned to just go with it. To accept, that I am negative and judging towards things from time to time - and most importantly to not let it influence my actions. It is very hard, especially, because I had a little drama based on this whole judging theme for the last weeks. But I think I found my way into observing. And to let things go. Not as effectively as I probably want to, but hey, it's something! (•́⌄•́๑)૭✧

What will I do next?
I have the feeling, that I was a bit sloppy with this challenge, so I will probably continue this procedure until I find another mind-game °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°

Montag, 2. November 2015


It has been quite a while i guess but I'm still alive and kickin'! 
As for myself, I started a little challenge for myself, inspired by self-actualization. Actually I did not intend to "cure perfectionism", because I don't think, I am a very perfectionistic person. I am rather a little too sloppy to be honest, but there was a point that got me curious, which is criticizing everything and anyone around you. Being non-judgemental is a very dear topic to me as objectivity and self-improvement in general. I have noticed, that people are constantly complaining about strangers or their own surroundings, which is upsetting me in the process. Of course, I am not excluded, I also complain about too many trivia therefore this also is pissing myself off. So this challenge is a very good start, to control that - or so I thought

Montag, 8. Juni 2015


So, ich werde jetzt 20 Minuten lang schreiben, während Musik läuft, denn das hier ist der
21 Minimalism Challange-Tag,
den ich schon seit Ewigkeiten verschiebe!

Montag, 23. März 2015


Thoughts, I've stumbled upon at some time, that help me a lot through difficult times:

 - "Don't compare yourself to others"
 - "sonder"
 - "Oh, look who cares? Not me! It's not me!"
 - "It's not about them, it's about you"

Montag, 5. Januar 2015

Project 365

I actually wanted to do this in Japanese on my .. Japanese blog, but as I am not able to get to my profiledata atm I have to move this there another time. So I am just going to start with my first 5 days in English. Fair enough.

First of all, I heard of this 'Project' from Lea, who did this in, uh 2012 or something. I have finally decided to do this, since I have enough time and not enough talent in completing such things as you could probably see with all my unfinished 30-day-challenges, but don't even go there.
It's quite simple, I will just post a photo every day in 2015 and see where this year will lead me, there  are some exciting things planned uuuh~ I will also comment shortly, that's why this would make much more sense for me in Japanese but oh well.